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Her name was gorow. m4w You were my first true love. People tell me this is the reason for the constant struggle with my brain and my foolish heart to finally rid you for good. In the beginning all I wanted was to get in you in bed. After a short time went by you grew on me and fear sprouted from this, causing me to break up with you the first time. I thought it was just a crush and that it will pass with time. I quickly realized, with the advice of once close friends and family, that it was a foolish mistake. When we started to spend more time together, my feeling started to grow stronger, but I didn't know how to treat you like the woman you were. You kept me in complete awe of you! Every time I came close to believing you, that you couldn't get any better, you managed to top yourself off. A true beauty of a lady who, with one smile or look, melted my heart and caused me to become totally dumbstruck. Though I did try my best to show you my feelings, I felt it was never enough. I felt you never truly trusted me. I felt no confidence from you. It flustered me greatly. I even went so far as to burn the bridges of my female friends and then all my friends just to have that trust. I soon found myself pushing my family away as well. I tried to make amends for every mistake I made towards you. I felt there was nothing I could do for you to make the confidence and trust flourish for me.
I even went as far as attempting to befriend your parents, and they disliked me with passion. I moved in with you and your parents, hopping you would see how committed I was too you . I was never good at surprises, but I tried. I remember one failed surprise, taking you on a trip to boardwalk. You were so happy and excited, but nothing went as planned and afterward I was the one to blame. Even though I agreed to and did everything you desired, just too keep you happy. I should have done even more with you. I knew from the beginning that you liked the lake and the ocean. I should have taken you to those spots instead. I have enjoyed so many laughs and new experiences with you. There was our first apartment, our first engagement, and our first love with eachother. There were so many that I can’t remember them all.
You were the inspiration in my life. I felt like a king and you were my queen. I was blinded so much by the love and trust I had invested in you. I don’t feel foolish nor do I regret being with you. I may have said once that you stole two years of my life, but the truth is, you gave me life and gave it meaning in those two years. Yes, I may still feel robbed of all my money and feel betrayed, but if God gave me a chance to be with you, even for a day, I would take it and show you the world. I would show you all the love that my pathetic, weak, and broken heart can show. Gorow, after all the words, all the actions shown between us, I still cannot understand why you hate me so much. I tried to fight for you; I should hate you and not want to talk you. You lied to me, cheated on me, and took everything away from me including my heart. You even spread false rumors about me. Painted me as a demon from hell. After all that, I never once said the words "dislike" or "hate." I never ed you names or spread rumors about you. In fact, I defended your name from those who tried. Why you may ask, because I am a better person then all of them, and I still love you. The only thing I did was have a broken heart. You said once that I should get help and I did. Now I seek you out to redeem myself and attempt to repair any damages that are between us. Let me make amends for myself; let me touch your heart once again in places hidden from you. Places only your soul recognizes. Let me show you how much I changed. Let me be your best friend once again and I promise to show you the world.
Still and always love you.
Gamer Trash. J.A.L

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